Things here proceed along as expected. "Marge", as I'll refer to her in these blogs, is getting the rest she so desperately needed before she arrived here. She sleeps, eats, showers, smokes a cig or two, and has repeated this process since her arrival two days ago. When she's awake, much of her time is spent arguing with her parents or trying to justify her absence from her nursing assistants program. She is nearly hysterical whenever she approaches any difficulty at all and her way of expressing her frustration is to cry and/or yell at her parents. She constantly gets down on herself. She exhibits little ability to focus. I explained to her that she still has toxins in her bloodstream and body tissues that need leaching out, but the addict in her wants her to return to LA. She is trying to justify that return by saying that her schooling has to be this or that, but she is unwilling to tell her school the real story. Plainly, she is just not ready to return to the civilized world. It should be interesting to see exactly what she decides. Right now, it is hard to get much in to her. She is courteous, but resistive to any suggestions. Very negative in her world view, and it's a negativity that's based on fear. Her lack of esteem makes her a real challenge, especially because she doesn't not want to be here and is somewhere else in her mind.

As to my shoulder injury, here is the full impression by the radiologist below.

1. full-thickness tear of the supraspinatus and infraspinatus
tendon with 5 cm of retraction and mild to moderate atrophy.
2. partial tear of the subscapularis tendon with displacement of
the biceps tendon from the bicipital groove
3. mild to moderate degenerative osteoarthrosis of the
acromioclavicular joint
4. mild degenerative osteoarthrosis of the glenohumeral joint

Obviously this stuff can't be good and i am scheduled to see an orthopedic surgeon next Tuesday. Well, I was looking for a rest, now it seems as if I've been forced into one.